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Goodluck josh with all your future endevours....You will be back even though u may not ever be fully Gone!
Here's a song that kinda Relates To this Situation, ps you dont have to read them, Just D/L them. YOu got me hooked on Nightwish, therefor i must try Get you hooked on millencolin
Cheers
Both Millencolin
Millencolin - Twenty Two Lyrics
I'm one year older now since last time I saw you
in case you wanna know, I'm about to say what I'm up to
first of all I'm a sluggard movin' slow in a clumsy way
some peace of mind is what I want, but that will be the day
I've been going with the flow for too long now, this must end
running 'round in circles, I've been so far away from myself
searching for the energy and the time to make a change in my
life
instead of watching it pass by, get something done while I'm
alive
I'm twenty two, don't know what I'm supposed to do
or how to be, to get some more out of me
I'm twenty two, so far away from all my dreams
I'm twenty two, feeling blue
I try to activate myself the best I can
so that boredom won't catch up with me, I've got my daily plan
wake up late, then rehearse a bit with the band, I guess it's
cool?
later when I'm home again I boil a note or two
then I got to bed that's what I do
Afraid that I will be weak forever
I can't stay in this shape any longer
my life's just another cliche
Duckpond Lyrics
Everybody is leaving from this town and from me.
They've got the burning flame, they sure achieve their aim.
You know that's tough for me to see.
Oh, how I wish I could do the same as them and go.
Just pack my bags and good-bye,
get out fast or fade away real slow.
What you see is what you get right here,
where a change is nowhere near.
What you see is what you get from me.
In this duckpond, leave me be.
I pretend my life is perfect like the faces on TV.
Yeah, that's the only way to face another day,
try to deny the misery.
But those are the ways of lonely's and like a clown,
yeah, I do act.
No matter where I could be or would like to go,
I'm stuck here. That's a fact.
I'm too weak I'm down on my knees.
Too feeble for something new.
Feels like there's nothing I can do.
Keep on laughing 'bout me,
keep on doing your own,
But someday I will be that one.
Be that one.
Yeah, someday I will be that one...